Just an update.

Hello and good morning to everyone. Haven't been on here in a while, and if anyone really reads this, I apologize. But life has been pretty damn hectic since my last post. Christmas break flew by, and I had to dive right in to the spring semester here at Clemson. It certainly hasn't been a walk in the park though. Quite the opposite actually. John's aunt passed away, and even though she wasn't my relative, it affected me a good bit - mostly because it put a lot of stress on my relationship with John. But alas, she isn't suffering anymore and John and I made it through the storm.

So that brings me here. Today is my last day of class before spring break, and I'm feeling really good about life. I just recently decided to change my major to psychology, to try something a little more on my level. I haven't spoken to my advisor yet, and it looks like I'm going to have to wait until after spring break, but I'm doing it. I'm not doing well in the science department - I really don't think it's my thing - and it sucks because I would love to go into the medical field. But I'm at a point in my life where I feel like I should (at the risk of sounding cliche) go in a different direction. Even if that means giving up my nursing dream, or even gynecology. I'll get there eventually. But psychology is something I've always enjoyed, and I've never struggled with it. Plus, according to all the research I've done, there are tons of employment opportunities (good ones), and the pay is actually pretty good. So I'm really looking forward to going after this.

I think I'm just at a point in my life where I'm really figuring out who I am and what I want and don't want. I want a good job and to be happy. I want to live near the beach in a nice house and have a nice car. But I don't want to kill myself in school to do it. I don't want to sit around studying a bunch of material that bores me just to fail my tests and spend and extra two years in college. I could be going to grad school instead. So that's what I'm going to do.

I'm also not going to waste my time with people who aren't going to help me. I have a handful of people that I'm close to, who really know me, and who truly care about me. I love these people with all my heart, and there isn't really room for anyone else. I don't want to be surrounded with silly and unnecessary drama. I have parents who care about me, and my relationship with them continues to grow on a daily basis. Now that I'm getting older and becoming an adult, we all seem to be getting along better and understanding each other. We're actually having fun these days. In fact, a lot of fun. I'm actually going to two concerts with my dad this year (Tom Petty AND Iron Maiden), and that never happens.

I also have a boyfriend who loves me very much, and I'm blessed to have him in my life. Sure, we have our ups and downs just like any couple, but somehow, we manage to get closer and closer every single day. And then I have my best friend Jamie. She's the best friend I could've ever asked for. She's almost ten years older than me with four kids, but she is the greatest. We have an awesome relationship. I can tell her anything and vice versa. We actually teach each other things about life, and it's helping us both grow. I really hope I never lose her.

So that's my reflection for the day. For the month. Until I can come back to this blog. Hopefully I can start posting on a more regular basis, especially since school will be winding down soon. Until then, I'm going to go enjoy my spring break and hopefully get a lot accomplished. So, here I go. Got a positive outlook on life and I'm ready to get started. Let's do this!